19/09/2018
ARGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH my Stocks and Shares ISA has dropped from 3,448.87 to 2999 something!!! I lost about £400 in this share called Flowtech fluidpower PLC dropped by about 30%!!!!!!!!
Do I seem like a give a shit,,,,,,,, did I give you that impression from my first initial sentences?
Let me tell you something cuzzzzzyyyyyyy I DON’T give a fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!
Let me tell you now this stock market thing will be a major vehicle into me achieving FI (financial Independence). Getting salty about losing a bit of money here and there is stupid, If at some point I ever lose more than about 15K i’ll still won’t care but it will trigger a change on my initial process of investing in the stock market.
Would you like me to explain it,,, SMH……… thought you’d say that here have a look at my example mindset:
Because my property was a first purchase I got away with paying a low amount of stamp duty.
But the fees and admin fees just to buy this fucking first set of passive income cost me
4,069.75 “in fees”.
So let me break this down I paid 55k (of which 4k of it was just “fees”) to get £161,000 pound in debt that needs to be paid in 25 years.
So having put only 3k in stocks and losing £400,,,, I ain’t losing no sweat, in fact I’m going to buy even more of the fucking stock.
I went to football training today and I want to talk about it. I don’t consider myself a great football player in anyway whatsoever, in fact I’d call myself good at best. But when I leave training with this team that I play with, I always feel like absolute shit.
The hypocrisy in a number of these individuals is ridiculous and yet I know i’m simply just not fit enough, technically good enough and can’t seem to obtain a better football IQ.
People scream like mental during these sessions and very rarely can you think you’re improving.
So why put myself through this shit on a weekly basis?
Well similar to the analogy with my brother, being shit at something might on first impression might not mean much.
Being rubbish at something and leaving it at that means nothing, but being rubbish at something and constantly trying to improve on it means EVERYTHING. Phil Knight says something in his book like “fail quickly and learn quicker” or something to that effect. Feeling like crap grounds me, not giving up instills a resilience in me that not giving up even though I feel low I can still keep going.
Even though its twenty past midnight, I have to go to the cash machine and pulled out another £200.
Tomorrow might be the last day I have to do it. Get it done bro get it done.